Calm... Serenity... and Sadness...

I could still remember the time when Kira and I decided to live with Reverend Malchio in the orphanage on Marshall Islands. Our lives were happy and content. But I could still see the sadness in Kira’s eyes, he tried to hide it with his smile by playing with the children at the beach. But the emotional scar in his heart will never fade away that no amount of time will ever erase. I was so near to him, yet it seems like we were so far apart. But still, I will stay with him till the end, till the my very last breath and till the very last beat of my heart.

Hope... Faith... and Love...

I could still remember the ring that I gave him. It once belonged to my mother and with it I finally confessed my love for him. In return, he gave me a kiss on the cheek, it was light and featherlike, but it felt warm. Then he flew off towards the battlefield like hero in a fairy tale. I just pray that my hero will come back to me safely.

I watched quietly at the bridge, as the heated battle continued all around us. My heart almost stopped when I saw Kira’s mobile suit extremely damaged in the fight. Thankfully, he’s okay, severely injured but still alive. I was so relieved that he’s okay. And for that, I promised myself that I’ll always stay by his side.

I'm here for you...

When Kira discovers that he is the product of the Ultimate Coordinator project and he fell into depression. He eventually lost consciousness because of fatigue and mental torture and I feel worried seeing him like this.

Finally, he woke up, and I was relieved. At first, Kira mistook me as Fllay, and then later he got back to his senses. I understand that he continues to grieve for Fllay, and I can't do nothing to ease that for now. Except let him feel and see that I am here for him to stay by his side. I comforted him by saying that meeting him has made her so happy despite all the sadness I had endured up to this point.

Sorrow... Grief... and Lament...

I could still remember the time we’ve fought all together. When I’ve decided to board the Eternal with Captain Andrew Waltfeld and join the Kusanagi and Archangel to form the Three Ships Alliance to finally stop this war.

I saw Kira once again, I was so happy, my heart was overflowing with joy and yet I can't hold my tears back anymore that the and the first thing that came into my mind was to run into his arms and cry my eyes out. And so I did. I told him everything that has happened to me, every feeling that was locked up inside of my heart, the pain of losing my father and how sad I was when he left. I felt so secured while staying in his strong embrace. As he hugged me tight and comfort me, I felt that I am my true self, I am Lacus Clyne, I'm just a girl like everybody else, I laugh, I smile, I get hurt and I cry.

And yet, I have to remain strong and firm in front of everybody, even though I'm hurting deep inside, I have to hold it and lock it inside my heart. Only to Kira that I show my tears, only to Kira that I smile rarely with warmth, only to Kira that my heart beats.

For the first time in my life, I finally knew how it feels like to be loved by someone.

Uncertainty... Vague... and Doubt...

Not so long, they have discovered me helping Kira escape by giving him the Freedom, thus declaring me and my father traitors. As part of the Clyne Faction, me and father Siegel tried to inform the people of Patrick Zala's genocidal plans, but our house was attacked by ZAFT soldiers under Patrick Zala's orders, and my father was gunned down.

While I went into hiding, I managed to meet Athrun. I could still remember the time when he and I met at the stadium concert. Sadly, we met in very unpleasant way. I could still remember the words I’ve told him before.

“What do you believe in and fight for, Athrun? The medals you're rewarded? Or your father's order!”

I saw the uncertainty in his emerald orbs while he pointed a gun at me. I wish that my words could reach his confused heart and make a difference in his point of view.

Answer to my prayer

I was happy when my prayer was finally answered, Reverend Malchio visited our home and told us that he’s bringing an injured soldier with him. I was surprised that the injured soldier turned out to be Kira. I was happy, yet at the same time sad. Because what I’ve witnessed had destroyed my very soul, Kira was lying motionless and unconscious, his body was wrapped up in bandages and a pain of expression was etched on his face. Everyday I checked up on him, sitting beside his bed, waiting for his eyes to open, watching him silently as his bandaged chest rise and fall. His face seemed to be more peaceful and calm now, maybe the fresh air and warm sunlight helped him a lot.

At last, he woke up, and I was glad. The days raced on like the beating of my heart, as my feelings for him continued to grow. Time spent with him was beyond happiness. No words can explain how it felt during those times. It felt like those days would last forever. But I was wrong. If only we could have stopped time right there and then. Then the day I feared most would’ve never come. Kira decided to leave PLANT in order to save his friends in the Archangel back on Earth. Again, he cried and told me with a forced smile that he’ll be back. The pain and anguish plunges deep into my heart, as I could do nothing to stop him. So I’ve decided to give him a new sword for him to fight – ZGMF-X10A Freedom. And with it I lend him my strength with a light kiss on his cheek. Once again, our paths went on different ways, but I’ll always remember his words and I’ll continue to wait for him till then.

Pain... Tears... and Suffering...

Everybody was affected by the war, everybody was hurt and wounded...But there was one person, who had suffered more than we did...Kira...I could still remember the time when I first met him. I was sent to the ruins of Junius 7, I was in a civilian ship when suddenly, I ran into a major problem. Our ship was attacked by the Earth Alliance and I was shoved into a lifepod for my safety. By the sudden twist of fate, I was rescued by a mobile suit pilot and was brought on board the Archangel. Kira Yamato, the pilot of the Strike Gundam, he’s the one who saved me when my lifepod wanders off aimlessly in space. He has brown hair and soft purple eyes, but his eyes seem to be filled with sadness as tears began to fall down endlessly.
Also, here I met a girl named Fllay Allster. She's a Natural, she's probably younger than me, she has dark red hair that fall down to her shoulder, with a pair of beautiful grey eyes. I tried to be friendly with her, but she looked down on me and scorned my kindly act. She hated me for the fact that I am a Coordinator. In which I cannot blame her, coz it's my people who killed her father. Fllay threathened to hurt me, if the ZAFT forces won't let her father go. But unfortunately, it was too late. Fllay saw before her eyes the massive explosion of her father's vessel. I couldn't do anything to help her, not even to say comforting words for her.

On the other hand, Fllay blamed Kira for letting her father die. Kira continued to blame himself for Fllay’s loss. I tried my best to comfort him, hoping that I could somehow ease his pain. As we continue to talk to each other, I found out that he is kind and gentle, and I began to privately have feelings for him. I also learned that both he and my former fiancé Athrun Zala shared a bond of friendship. But because of the war, they were forced to fight each other in order to protect their friends and beliefs. I couldn’t do anything back then, except to watch him silently disappear from the distance while in Athrun’s arms. It saddens me that we have to go our separates ways, but I will never forget the short time I’ve spent with him. How I prayed to that we could meet once again.

Pink Princess

Power?

Am I looking for power?

No. This is not what we want. This is not what I want, but this is what I have now. As the new leader of PLANT, I have all the power I need, the power to protect my people, my nation, my friends, and my loved ones. But power can turn into greed, into hate, and then eventually it can cause war. War means more suffering, unnecessary sacrifices, bloodshed, and tears. No, this is definitely not what we want. I’ve seen enough in the past, too much blood had been spilled, too much lives had been lost, and too much tears had been shed.

Now, I sat inside my office, all alone with no one to talk to, no one to hear my voice, or my songs. It was quiet, so quiet that I could here my own breathing. My memories from my past began to roll inside my head like a movie clip. I could still remember the events of the previous wars. Yes, it is very painful and sad, and many of us had suffered. But even if it is hard, I was with my friends, Cagalli, Athrun, Kira and the rest of the Archangel crew. Together we’ve managed to endure all the hardships of the war, and conquer all the obstacles that fate had thrown at us... And back then, I was not alone...

Hello, my friends. My name is Lacus Clyne. I am the daughter of the former Chairman of PLANT, Siegel Clyne. I am an idol singer that had grown popular in the PLANTs. I’ve gained lots of titles back in the past, I was known as the “pink princess” and “the Songstress” of ZAFT. As a songstress, I used my voice as my means of approach, I’ve sung in numerous concerts and I was happy that I was able to put a smile on everyone’s faces. When the war started, everybody was in total panic and chaos. Once again I used my voice to calm everybody down, I sang my songs as it reaches their distressed hearts. I may have helped my people back then, but there’s one thing that even my angelic voice can’t do – it’s to bring their loved ones back. I stood strong and firm in front of everybody, yet deep inside, I cry silent tears as I hear everybody’s cries and feel their pain.